One Foot in Front of the Other

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Hey. How are you? I’m living the dream and doing some serious soul searching. Why am I here? What is my purpose? Where do I go from here? All deep questions that I have contemplated for the last several months. I feel disconnected although my deep connection with nature is strong when I am out in it.

I ordered some more supplies to do longer hikes. I might start with just one overnight and see how that feels. I know there are people who have never hiked in their lives and completed the WHOLE AT and now have popular YouTube Channels and give great advice (I’m looking at you Dixie of Homemade Wanderlust).

I often wonder what more I could contribute to life since there are so many people living now that make great contributions… Like, what could I add? I think I could really add the aspect of my perspective – which is a sober one. Other than that, I have no idea. Still searching on that one.

I know I am tired. I am almost through with realtor school and then I will study and take my test. According to most, it is a thankless job that only pays a commission, but my plan is to use it to go in different directions. Again, we’ll see.

I have hiked many points on the PA part of the AT. Probably a good 230 miles of it is in PA and I have hiked roughly 60 of those miles in various places. It’s been sorta chilly and we have been leaving later than I like to, so we don’t see many critters, just lots of mushrooms and other hikers. Also, many overlooks… I can’t lie, I have wondered what it would be like to just ‘accidentally tumble down one.’ but then I put that thought right out of my head. Suicidal ideation is something I have dealt with for decades. I don’t talk about it because who wants to listen to that? So, I just post a happy quote up on my Facebook page every morning and fake it ’til I make it.

This coming weekend I am hoping for nice weather. I’m not sure about doing any sections of the AT this weekend – I might skip it. There are some parks I really want to explore like WORLD’S END STATE PARK. We drove through it once, but my daughter hiked there a few weeks ago and it looks fun.

If you feel like giving up, just keep moving. Look for something, anything to hold onto. There is always something… a loved one, a pet, a book, a memory, anything. ❤ Keep on keeping on.

Appalachian Trail, Come Back!

What’s going on everyone? I am doing well. The hubs and I are officially hikers (I guess?) and we recently hiked 12 miles on the Appalachian Trail this past Sunday. We didn’t see any critter like the other time, but there were some nice views once the fog cleared and a few people as well.

And lots of mud.

Me about to embark on the Appalachian Trail for a few! ©2020 DAMcGarrity

My husband and I recently started getting in shape and besides eating better food and drinking more water, we’ve taken up walking and hiking. We’re having a lot of fun getting in shape. I even came up with an official YouTube Channel name since the first one was Darlene A. McGarrity, blah blah blah. Now it is Sober Adventurer. I love it. Hopefully, they will let me have the name as I get more and more subscribers. I looked all over YouTube and the like for sober adventurers. I looked all over the hiking community for people who like to have fun and not drink.

Overlook ©2020 DAMcGarrity

And hey, if you are a drinker, that is totally cool! I have no beef with you. But there are people who struggle for ideas and with concepts of having fun without drinking or getting high. I know this because I was once that person.

As I watched all the videos of hikers finishing states and taking Zero Days, and finding restaurants, I noticed how many of them were talking about alcohol, drinking alcohol – it made me fee kinda sad for anyone on the AT or other hiking that wants to unwind afterwards without alcohol.

As I still struggle to find my purpose and calling (I have been so many things including right now being in real estate school and also an internet DJ!) I always navigate back to nature, every time.

So, we hiked and hiked – came upon two overlooks – we stopped and started. We laughed and we kinda got snippy with each other. Not only are we exercising more but we are both doing NutriSystem.

The whole premise to my chaos is to be able to hike the entire AT from top to bottom (or bottom to top) at some point in my life. Completely sober. I will be posting a new video soon! So make sure you subscribe to my channel.

As always, thank you so much for reading my blog! Be well. )O(

Captivating

 

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Lehigh Gorge – Pennsylvania ©2018 DAM Steelman

 

Real quick… the hubs and I went to the Lehigh Gorge yesterday in Pennsylvania. It is near Jim Thorpe, PA and it is truly captivating. Nature – all of it – is captivating. I sat on a rock by a waterfall yesterday and just listened for a good five minutes. Those are the moments that re-center me.

So surreal.

Nature helps me in so many ways. It is no wonder I am kind of sad today.  Sometimes, when I am out in nature, I kind of realize I am not being true to myself when I go back to life on life’s terms. I am not living up to my potential. I am living for others, which can be okay at times – when people depend on us. But, my kids are grown.

What the hell am I doing with my life? Could I be going through a mid-life crisis at 45? Or am I just outgrowing my shell? What is the next step? My husband and I have been talking about moving to Arizona.

Is that in the cards?

Stay tuned… ❤

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Talk About It Tuesday – Beached Dolphins & a Burger Thief

Welcome to another edition of Talk About It Tuesday.  This segment starts of a bit more serious than prior weeks.

Dolphins are said to be some of the smartest, social mammals in the world.  They are similar to humans in that they are social creatures and are known to have sex for pleasure rather than for reproduction alone. Learn more about dolphins and marine wildlife at www.vettechschools.org.

In Cape Cod, over a hundred dolphins have stranded themselves on the beach.  They were checked out for any health related issues.  After determining the dolphins were in good health, they were tagged and sent back out to the ocean.

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As a dolphin (and all around nature/animal/mammal) lover, “dolphin strandings” fascinate me.  It is interesting because Dolphins are smart – which I already stated.  They communicate, use tools, have sex for pleasure, get into fights with other dolphins and travel in social groups.

Back to the stranding of the dolphins.  So it’s not one or six, or even twelve dolphins.  129 dolphins have stranded themselves in the last three weeks.  92 of these dolphins died.  More dolphins keep coming.  And no one knows why.

Me being me (without a degree in science), I think the worst.  I have read about animals fleeing a region or area shortly before a natural disaster hits. Check out this Discovery article.  Don’t get me wrong. It’s not like two flamingos are chilling down in Miami and then suddenly:

Fred Flamingo: “Ya feel that?”

Frank Flamingo: “Sure did, Fred.  Storm’s coming.”

Fred Flamingo: “Yeah, I felt it two hours ago.  Got my stuff packed and ready to go.”

Frank Flamingo: “Same here.  Last time I got stuck in migration traffic. Damn near had one of my legs ripped off.”

Or maybe it does go that way. Sometimes I think that animals have mental telepathy and actually do communicate with their minds. Like when my cats sit and stare at each other from across the room.

Ooookk… I’ve said too much.

Back to the dolphins.  The amount of beached dolphins in recent weeks is alarming and I feel like it is the beginning of a super creepy movie.  You know, kind of like The Happening when all the birds dropped dead?  Yes, that story is absolute fiction

Do you have any theories on the beaching of the dolphins?

In quirkier news, James B. Summers walked into a Madison, WI Denny’s and straight into the manager’s office.  James told the manager that he was now in charge.  James then cooked himself a cheeseburger (and fries) and ate almost all of it.  Authorities came to arrest the “Burger-ler”  and as he was about to be led out he shouted “This is why you don’t dine and dash kiddies,” to the perplexed patrons.

Ah, just another addition to my “reasons I don’t eat fast food” list.  Have you ever encountered a looney character in a public place?

Thanks for joining me for this segment of Talk About It Tuesday! 😀