Friday Flash Fiction – Resistance

Minetta Tavern
Minetta Tavern (Photo credit: Gandhu & Sarah)

Carson Smithers sat on the bar stool as the clock struck the eight o’clock hour.  He had been on that bar stool for the last three hours staring at the now warm beer on the ratty coaster in front of him.  The day’s work had ended in shambles along with a verbal tirade from his boss in front of his co-workers; even Jenny, the hot girl from the cubicle at the end of the hall.

“Hey, buddy, you gonna drink that or do you want a fresh one?”  The burly bartender asked as he wiped the old, wood bar down with a wet rag.  Carson watched as the bartender methodically picked up coasters, wiped, put coasters down, and wiped all the way to the other end of the bar without missing a piece of the bar or spilling a drink.

Carson looked up sheepishly and nodded while he pushed the perspiring glass to the edge of the bar and pulled his cigarettes from his pocket.

The jukebox started playing an unfamiliar country western song as someone broke the rack on the pool table.  Carson counted three balls that dropped into the pockets without looking at them rattling around on the fuzzy green felt of the table.

His eyes gazed across the pool table, across the jukebox, across the blonde-haired woman with the heaving breasts and over to the repaired wall to the left of all the action.  He remembered making that hole over ten years ago in a drunken rage over a different blonde-haired woman so long ago.

The bar stool shrieked as he pushed it back with his legs to stand up.  All of the memories that flooded back reminded him of all the reasons why he stopped drinking and took steps to change his life.

The bartender rushed down to Carson, “hey buddy, you leaving already?  You bought two beers and didn’t take a sip from either.  What gives?”

Carson tossed a ten-dollar bill on the bar and said, “Sorry, man.  I got to get to a meeting.”

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20 Truly Exceptional Alcohol Addiction Resources List – I Made #20!

I got an email this morning that said my blog here, Sober Living:  Life at Full Throttle made the “20 Truly Exceptional Alcohol Addiction Resources List.”  I came in at #20!  😀 I checked out a lot of the other blogs, all of which are awesome pertaining to alcoholism, addiction and how these bloggers have handled it.

Here is the link: 20 Truly Exceptional Alcohol Addiction Resources.  Just wanted to share my happy moment this morning.  Okay, time for me to go back to bed… I am sick. 😦

All About Perspective

What do you see?

Perspective.  We all have our own.  Some perspectives we learn over time while others we form on the drop of a dime.  I have said, in earlier posts, that I find people fascinating.  Their tastes, their mannerisms, and their idiosyncrasies.  But what I am really into is their perspective.

For example:  the glass to the left of this post.  Half full?  Half empty?  Too much?  Not enough?  Do you even care?

I was at a meeting last night and at the end, we all went outside.  A lot of us stand around and chitter chatter sometimes; getting to know each other and all that. I was talking to my old sponsor, and I spotted this huge bug on the wall to the right of me.  It was huge and beautiful, from my perspective.

I started to ease my hand under the bug (my mother had shown me how to do this just this past weekend) and my old sponsor started to become uncomfortable.

“Please, Darlene.  Don’t do that!” she begged me.

“Why?  It’s a harmless bug.  Look how cool he is,” I defended as I edged my hand under the left rear leg.

“Cool?  It’s ugly and it will hurt you,” she said.  I could hear her perspective from the fear in her voice.

I really wanted to hold this bug and get a better look at it.  From my perspective it was just a bug; a misunderstood bug judged solely on appearance.  My perspective saw beauty and uniqueness.

I decided to spare everyone (at this point more people were watching) the horror of me (gasp!) actually picking up a giant bug to revel in the beauty I saw in God’s little creature.  My old sponsor relaxed and so did a few other people after I moved my hand away from the bug.  I felt a little sad because I didn’t get to pick the bug up.

However, I am happy that I got to see it and that I didn’t cause mass hysteria! 😉

Life is all about perspective.

Have your perspectives ever changed?  How do you feel about bugs?

ROW80 – Life, Living and GAH!

So… pretty much my Flash Fiction Friday commitment is a big flop because I have not one flipping story idea.  So, next Friday if I do not have a story idea, I am going to reblog one of my older ones and maybe that will get my creative juices flowing.

Today is my parents 40th wedding anniversary.  Wow.  I spent yesterday with the whole family and we went to the Cape May Zoo.  It was a great day.

On my goals:  meetings are in check, got a little editing/proofing done, commented on a few blogs over the course of the week and managed to get on Triberr only one time this week and share a lot of posts.  This week I am aiming for two.

I took a Chakra class Friday night, and that was a lot of fun.  It was a guided meditation and it really helped me look into myself a little deeper….

Goals for this week:

  • get back into blogging
  • proofing manuscript
  • sorting out my life
  • AA/Al-Anon meetings

I hope everyone else is having a great Sunday and has a great week!  Keep up the good work you guys and gals!

ROW80 – Getting Down and Dirty

So, I have been going to A LOT of meetings.  I even started going to Al-Anon, because hey, I am from a long line of alcoholics, so it makes sense.  And, as I go to these meetings (six a week) and I meet new people and hear new stories, I am finding out many things about myself.

Honestly, I can’t change me or my circumstances without rigorous honesty and self-awareness.  If I keep living in an imaginary bubble and pretend my life is just the way I like it, my life is going to stay exactly the way I don’t like it.

That is lame.

I went to the library Saturday and took out two books: “Make Your Creative Dreams Real” and “Become a Personal Trainer For Dummies.”

I know I am a good writer, and I love to write.  My dream has always been to be a best-selling author touching people’s lives, all the while living in an amazing house up the mountains somewhere.  However, what I am realizing is this:

I really love people.  I love talking to people, I love making someone’s day and, most of all, I love helping people.  People fascinate me.  Their mannerisms, their behavior, the things they say and especially the way they project the way they think.

And for some reason, whenever I journal or reflect on what I REALLY want to do with my life, it always comes back to helping people.  Specifically, it always comes back to becoming a personal trainer or an addiction counselor.

So that is where I am at.

My goals:

  • Write synopsis and query letter for “Bound and Broken.”
  • Come up with some flash fiction stories (I had NO idea what to write for this past Friday – sorry everyone).
  • Continue with meetings.
  • Do a mind map of goals, tools and resources to get on the right path.

That’s it for me!  😀  Where is everyone with their progress?  Do you ever find new goals as you tackle current ones?

Have a great week…

Getting to Know You… and Me.

So my chicky pal GingerSnaap posted this awesome collaboration of questions on her blog and after cleaning up the coffee that squirted out of my nose due to insane laughter, I decided to give it a shot!  And you can too!  There is no need to tag anyone.  Just have some unpressured fun. 😀

1. Do you like animals,  or more specifically, do you like Dogs? Why or why not?

I love animals, and bugs, and spiders and snakes…. dogs are great, but I am a little leery of them having been bitten numerous times.

2. Toilet paper over or under?

It used to be over, until my cat figured out how to single-pawedly get the TP shredded and onto the floor.  Now it is under.  Take that CAT!

3. Favorite quote?

“Hate is baggage, life’s too short to be pissed off all the time.” ~ American History X

4. Favorite sport to watch?

Football & hockey… yes, violence is fun!

5. How do you separate your laundry before washing?

Um…. I don’t.

6. What would be the perfect date nite out for you?

A great dinner, a nice drive and awesome coffee.  No movie!

7. Is there anything you find unforgivable?

Yep. But not as much as I used to… goes with that whole “hate is baggage” thing.

8. Favorite vacation destination?

If it has trees, birds and log cabins… I’m there. Oh.  And a babbling brook.

9. Name one thing you would change in an instant about your life, if you could.

I would change my insatiable need to procrastinate!!!!!!  UGH!

10. What do people misunderstand about you the most?

Everything.

11. Name up to 5 people you would meet right now, if you could.

Hmm… Edgar Allen Poe and…. Shinedown and…. Matthew McConaughey and…. Alexander the Great.

12. How/where did you meet your spouse/significant other/partner?

At an AA meeting of course!  😉

13. Have any Pet Peeves?

People who are late and any kind of lip, mouth, eating smacking noise… *shudders*

14. Quirks?

I still kiss stuff up to God!

15. Your biggest weakness?

Many…. I’m too damn nice!

16. Complete the following sentence: I would like to have a menage a trois with……

Matthew McConaughey and any other hot guy.  I’m not that picky.

17. Who or what is in the trunk of your car?

The cover for my car (which I never use) and some dead leaves. 

18. Have you ever had a recurring dream? What was it?

I don’t remember my dreams really.. so it is possible.

19. What is your best personal characteristic ?

I am a frootious loopius and I laugh at myself.  Openly.

20. What do you think about before falling asleep?

Hmm… what I want my life to be like and murder… Thanks Investigation Discovery!

21. Which is your dream car?

1970 Monte Carlo!!

Awesome awesomeness painted in awesome…. just awesome.

ROW 80 Update – Keeping in Stride

Well.  I must say, I am really doing quite nicely!  I am keeping up with my final edits on my novel, maintaining meetings, and taking time for myself.  I am up to page 140 on my WIP.  I sent my work to two fellow bloggers, and when they get time, they are going to read my work. Yay!

Friday night my BF and I went on an actual date.  We had tons of fun and I, for the first time, tried “green tea frozen yogurt.” It was absolutely delicious.

I am back into my Friday Flash Fiction and you can check out my latest piece here. Honestly, I wrote it kind of last-minute and had a picture on hand from a real place!  That real place is where the story is surrounded.

Now, on with the goals!

  • continue edits on “Bound and Broken.” I should wrap it up in two weeks.
  • continue with Friday Flash Fiction.
  • continue to share fellow blogger posts 3x a week via Triberr.
  • maintain meeting attendance.
  • clean up my work space! (There are books, papers and colored pencils everywhere!)
  • Start on my Power Mandalas (hence, the colored pencils.)

That’s it for me!  I was on vacation for half the week and I really got some time to relax.  😀  How about you? What’s going on in your world?

Keep it simple!