Where Do I Begin?

Okay… let me first say that the only thing I have accomplished so far this week was the AA meeting I got my ass to tonight.  I needed to talk to my sponsor and we did talk over yummy cheesecake and coffee at the diner across the street after the meeting.   The meeting was good (always).  The speaker was awesome.

I feel like everything is unraveling at such a high rate of speed that my frayed ends of sanity are escaping through my broken hands.  Yeah, that was a bit dramatic.  Maybe I still have my flair…. I don’t know.

I haven’t written all week so far (hope to get an opportunity tomorrow in work at some point).  I have read a few blogs.

Basically my teenage daughter is driving me insane.  I was listening in the room tonight about how everyone’s life is so wonderful and how everything is just falling together.  ??  Where is my wonderful togetherness?  I have been working damn hard for five plus years now.  When do I get to say, ‘FINALLY!’

I know, I know.  I am feeling sorry for myself. I recognize that.  Self-pity is a character flaw (yes – I have flaws) that seeps out from time to time.  I learned that my job in recovery is not to kill all the nasty flaws, but to keep some and work with them.

“Give it to God,” they say.  OK…………  I have been trying!  Maybe I am not doing it right.

Anyway… sorry to be the party pooper, but I just feel like something has to give.

Good luck to all my ROW80 chums this round.  😀  I am sure you all are working darn hard.  I am proud of you all!

Goals for this week:

Write

Read

Comment

Breathe.

Later Maters.

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Author: D. A. M. Steelman

I could get through life just fine quoting heavy metal lyrics.

6 thoughts on “Where Do I Begin?”

  1. You got this, Miss Darlene! It’s a rough time you’re going through, but I know that you’re awesome and that you’ll make it through this patch. You’ll be saying FINALLY before you know it – I believe that wholeheartedly!

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  2. Teen aged daughters are a handful for anyone, let alone someone dealing with maintaining sobriety. Mine drove me crazy for many years. If it helps to hear it al all…we are good friends these days, (She’s 26 now.)
    I feel for ya. Hang in there. 🙂

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    1. Hi Cynthia…

      I am so happy that you made it through the teenage years and that the two of you are now good friends. 🙂 This is definitely a silver lining in my cloud.

      Thanks for your support. 🙂

      Darlene

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