Premonition Identical


Premonition row

A bright and lonely threshold

Stepping through the light

Bend to the righteous

Identical assumptions

I can see through you


via Daily Prompt: Premonition

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Provoked into Change


What does it take to change? I mean, think about it. If everything was great all the time, where would be the incentive to do anything different? If life didn’t get uncomfortable sometimes, we would just wallow in mediocrity.

How many times have you been provoked into change? And would you have changed anything if you weren’t provoked? Think about it. People say, “why do bad things happen?” I believe most bad things happen because it’s the only way to get us to change, move, leave or stay.

I made up my mind about two memoirs I will write. The first one is about my journey through the last year of my addiction. It was pretty gruesome. I was provoked into sobriety because life became so unbearable. I lost everything. I have already written half of it in my ‘life story’ that my psychic advisor told me to write.

The other one is the one about the Wagon Wheel after getting kicked out of my psycho in-law’s house. A part of this is also in my ‘life story’ that I have written. In that story, I was hassled into staying in an already dead-end marriage because I had two children and was pregnant with a third. Throw in a crack head husband who steals pallets to make a living along with living in a hotel room above a seedy bar, and I think we have a story.

Writing down my regurgitated thoughts is the easy part. It’s like writing a grocery list or a step by step on how to boil water. Easy Peasy. For me, the editing is the hard part. I have no problem writing, “I wasn’t sure if it was the smell of the dead skunk outside the window or the fact that I was sitting in a puddle of my own blood that woke me up, but whatever it was it ignited a spark in me. A spark that something had to give.” 

But how do I make that pop? How do I make that really jump off the page? That’s where the work comes in. And that is where I’m at right now. April 1st is when I send my polished fiction novel to my editor. And April 1st is when I start breaking down my memoir.

Are you working on anything?

Peace and love my friends. ❤

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Lehigh Gorge – Pennsylvania ©2018 DAM Steelman


Real quick… the hubs and I went to the Lehigh Gorge yesterday in Pennsylvania. It is near Jim Thorpe, PA and it is truly captivating. Nature – all of it – is captivating. I sat on a rock by a waterfall yesterday and just listened for a good five minutes. Those are the moments that re-center me.

So surreal.

Nature helps me in so many ways. It is no wonder I am kind of sad today.  Sometimes, when I am out in nature, I kind of realize I am not being true to myself when I go back to life on life’s terms. I am not living up to my potential. I am living for others, which can be okay at times – when people depend on us. But, my kids are grown.

What the hell am I doing with my life? Could I be going through a mid-life crisis at 45? Or am I just outgrowing my shell? What is the next step? My husband and I have been talking about moving to Arizona.

Is that in the cards?

Stay tuned… ❤

Wonders of Wonder


…The Seven Wonders of the World and I am pretty sure Stonehenge isn’t one of the original wonders. Go figure. I was looking for an article on Seven Wonders because I, like many people, get confused about it. I know maybe three of them off the top of my head.

The classic seven wonders are:

  • Colossus of Rhodes.
  • Great Pyramid of Giza.
  • Hanging Gardens of Babylon.
  • Lighthouse of Alexandria.
  • Mausoleum at Halicarnassus.
  • Statue of Zeus at Olympia.
  • Temple of Artemis at Ephesus.

The new seven wonders are:

  • Chichen Itza, Mexico – Mayan City.
  • Christ Redeemer, Brazil – Large Statue.
  • The Great Wall, China.
  • Machu Picchu, Peru.
  • Petra, Jordan – Ancient City.
  • The Roman Colosseum, Italy.
  • The Taj Mahal, India.

So what’s up with Stonehenge not being on either list? Who the hell knows. My point here is that you don’t need to be told you are a wonder to be a damn wonder. I am awed by Stonehenge – manmade, alien made, or goat made – I don’t care who made it. Stonehenge IS a wonder. How the hell did they get those stones like that and plus… plus, the whole place is perfectly aligned with the summer and winter solstices (give or take a degree).

My husband and I watch a lot of Ancient Aliens where there is speculation that this wonder (and other official wonders) were made by extraterrestrials. And is that really so far-fetched? It could be entirely possible that there are other beings in the universe or the age-old theory that we… are the aliens.

I wonder…

Back to Stonehenge. It exists. Someone made it. It isn’t a natural wonder like the Grand Canyon, the Great Barrier Reef, or the Northern Lights but Stonehenge is really there and even more inspiring is that someone went to great trouble to think it out and create it. And they thought this up thousands of years ago! Another man-made wonder is the pyramids (again, alien speculation, but I digress).

Take that idea in your head and sketch it out.

Get out there and create your life. Use your experiences as lessons and fuel for the fire of accomplishment that burns inside you. Don’t sit idly by as the days turn to weeks to months to years. Get out there and do something with yourself. Shuck that fear off and build your Stonehenge. ❤

Blessed Be.

Natural Wonders



Remain ever fearless

Uncompromising in your quest

For absolution

For salvation

Despite devotion and support from others

Understand that only you can count on you

You are your foundation

You are your blanket

You just are

And you are stunning.


Happy International Women’s Day! Stay true to you and always caress your soul. 

via Daily Prompt: Uncompromising

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Branch Out


Branch out into the dark

Don’t forget your bleeding heart

Blanket the past with deception

Beat back truths with despondent dejection

All that time you wasted then

Plastered inside your plastic grin

Today is tomorrow’s yesterday

What then will you beg to say?

If only, if when, if you, if why

How can you care when you didn’t try

Step back into your simple darkness

You’re gonna feel it regardless

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Go For It

key-3087900_960_720At what point do you throw caution and stability to the wind and go after your dream? Do you wait until you have enough money saved? Maybe you wait until most of your debt is paid down. Or maybe, you just keep hoping you’re going to win the lottery and you won’t have to wait for any of that because you’ll be independently wealthy. Hey, Publisher’s Clearing House does knock on people’s doors.

I have been going through a slump of the woe is me’s lately and I know why. I am fortunate in the sense that most times I get down, I can pinpoint why and work my way up from there. I have been working at my job for ten plus years and despite my tenure, some of my coworkers disrespect me often. Now, we have a new person, and I am apparently her assistant as well. It is typical for me to be the low person on the totem pole, but I really think I am just sick of it.

It is what it is until it isn’t what it isn’t.

Sick of driving one plus hour each way to work at a place where I was told that I could ‘be easily replaced.’ The other woman that was also told that line of ignorance grew a set and quit before the holidays. Yes, quit before she got her big Christmas bonus.

Last Friday, I was at work when a snowstorm from hell began its savage beating around noon. My boss was a sweetheart and sent me out in said storm to pick up the pizza he bought for everyone. Then I and the new girl sat here until finally at four pm, he decided we could leave ‘before it got worse.’

It took me SIX HOURS TO GET HOME. I had two breakdowns in the car and only almost got stuck once. Thankfully, I had that giant cyst removed from my ovary last year so I was able to wait six hours and not have to pee (there is a goddess after all!). It was like being in a real-life apocalypse with dark, swirling snow, wind gusts, people screaming, downed trees, cars abandoned in the middle of roads covered in snow drifts.

So, why am I beating your ear with all this crap? Because me telling you is a way for me to tell myself: I tolerate that which I choose to tolerate. I can move when I want. I am an administrative assistant. I can get a job probably anywhere. Will it come with the awesome bonuses and benefits this one does? Most likely not… But, my goal is not to be an administrative assistant forever.



I have one book out now, one book coming out March 27, 2018, and my first full-length novel due out this year. 🙂

I was raised to be fearful, which is sad, but so true. Fear will rob you of anything you love if you let it. I am sick of the fear and the negative what-if’s: What if I fail?

Well…. What if I succeed?

So, throw caution to the wind and go after your dreams! Do it. The universe will help you if you believe.

Blessed Be )O(

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